Yes, Amen. I claim it in faith.

I am not there yet so You will have to bring me to that level.

Impossible Quiz

I can't believe I spent at least an hour on this:

http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html

And I haven't finished it yet!

As much as good things seem so pleasant now. It's always better to wait until it's the right time.

Right now at this very moment, I can honestly say that I am happy even with just a little wave.

Right now, your not as important as Him.

A Night at the Museum

It's good to know that some things never change.

After about 6 months (?) of being MIA, Joel Quah finally comes for a class gathering.

Still the same old, ah-beng joker. Good to see you, man.

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Thanks, guys for a fun, crazy and and also a little depressing night at the museum.

Facebook

Didn't know facebook can be quite amusing.

Especially when I can't blog from the office.

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Only 3 hours of sleep and I'm still going strong... zzzzzzzZzz..

Off

Yeah! I slept for 10 hours!

It's a really well-deserved rest, I think. Three days of manning the Eye Candy Counter at SFT and a day of scaring new enlistees can really tire one out.

For a few days I've been feeling like a zombie but this day off is really what I need. I feel much better.

I should minimize the time I spent staying up knowing full well that I have to wake up early the next day.

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I always thought that it was something I could never give up. But after letting it go, I realize how pointless it was to hold on to.

Sure, anime is cool and all but I'm not letting it eat up so much of my time anymore.

Goodbye. Visit now and then but don't stay too long.

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I can't believe that just a small instance can cause me to feel inferior.

If I look to myself then I really have no chance. Thank You that You are with me and You are my confidence.

Dare I

Dare I believe that anything I give to You will not be multiplied by You?

Dare I believe that anything that I offer to you will not be restored to me by You even a hundredfold?

Sometimes I don't have the words to say... And so I write them...

To Sir Yellowpig:

I don't know, man. I know what you mean when you say, "I don't know what may happen. Maybe it will work? We don't know." I've thought of it before too.

But what if the way for it to work out is through another path? The timing now seems unfavourable.

I think that the best path to any destination is to follow the path that He has set before us.

He knows the desires of our hearts. Dare we think that He doesn't know what we want and is not kind enough to give it to us? Didn't He say that through His Son He freely gives us all things? Doesn't "all things" mean "ALL THINGS"?

If He were to let you walk the yellow brick road now, how much will you enjoy the journey as compared as to if He keeps you from it until the right time?

I remember how you had decided that it was not a path for you to take and I can imagine that you had decided to give up.

I think the coincidence of being in the 4th hall is His way of telling you that don't completely give up - it's just not the right time.

Maybe you are at the right place at the wrong time?

I guess that's all I have to say. Just my 2-cents worth.

I thought I was the one who decide to chase after You.

But You've shown me once again of Your overwhelming love when You said that You yearn for me.

It's refreshing to know You don't need me. It's amazing to know that You want me.

Show me how and where and I will step out by the power of Christ in me.

I think I want to go into the match-making business.

To Gwa and your Bibix: To be honest, I'm surprised it's lasted this long. Haha. I wish that you two be kept in His love and may your paths continue to go in the same direction even though the road can be bumpy sometimes.

To the two small kids, Xiao Ti and Xiao Mei: So all the candles were blown out in out shot... When's the wedding?

To Ronnie: Seems like everything is fine between the two of you. I hope this continues and that he continue to treat you the way you deserve. If not, I and 2LT Wan will come and box his head in.

To Vic: Take all the time in the world that you need. Remember: Good things are always worth the wait. He has yet to get approval from us anyway.

To Wing Hei: Let's go find ourselves a girlfriend!

Oh that You would command Your blessings upon me.

Hit me left, right, and centre!

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A clear blue sky was seen today at 11 o'clock.

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Sometimes all it takes is just a small wave to brighten someone's day.

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Emmel Bev has been a real blessing. We went to Jalan Kayu and it's the first time my parents ate REAL roti prata.

It was my first time there also but I've been to a lot of prata places before so I was more ok.

The four of us were walking towards one shop with me and my bro in the lead when I stopped because I wasn't sure which place to go. My bro was no help though he's been there before.

So there we were, the four of us standing outside one of the shops stoning for a good 5 seconds.

I felt like a foreigner in a foreign land... Wait a minute... I am.

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I'm going to be manning the enlistment counter for the next few days.

I can't wait to be there when some of my friends come and enlist. Hehehe.

IC please!

How many visitors with you?

Tuck in your shirt!

Those with girlfriend, sister, or chio bu come this way please.

The rest go and board the ferry NOW!

Hehe.

I wish I could take a peek into the future.

When you have such a strong sense of your destiny...

You'd wish you could live it out right NOW!

Who would have thought that cookies can be such a problem?

The internet in the office has no cookies enabled and I can't enable them so I can't use blogspot in the office.

Anyway, I'm still slacking around the office and not really doing much of anything.

Glory be to God when the chief clerk and my superiors say that I am good.

I really have not done much of anything worth calling me "zhai". It's really God's favour because honestly if being zhai means sitting around looking at how people work whole day long then I admit, I am zhai.

Praise God for funny colleagues who like to de siao each other hence making the office a place of so much laughter.

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What are the odds eh, sir?

Yellowpig from now on.

Haha.

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I always thought that I would not want to grow up doing a desk job because I got this idea that it's very monotonous and I'll end up doing the same things.

Although that seems to be the case it seems like everyday is different.

I'm not sure how to explain but I find office work quite enjoyable.

Maybe it's the people.

Maybe because I'm still not really at the helm.

We'll see in the days to come.

Who Am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I? That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way, of my ever wondering heart.

Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again,
Who am I? That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind
You hear me when I'm calling, Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am,

I am Yours.

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After hearing it again yesterday I felt really set free.

I wanted to hear it again so I Youtube-ed it this morning.

And if that was not enough, He tells me "I love you." by making it the special number for today's services.

Who am I that You would love me so much?

I am Yours.

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On to One North!

Yeah!

The building that looks like a transformer where people can come and be transformed by The Transformer of lives.

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Know that He loves you. No, don't know it in the head. Let it sink into your heart. Let Him show you. Experience it.

It's one thing to know it in the head and say, "Hey, yeah I know God loves me," and yet still remain unchanged.

It's impossible to be in His presence and remain the same person!

If you want to know how much someone loves you, spend time with the person. It's the same with God.

If you think you can give your time, money, or anything to God and not have it multiplied to you a hundredfold then you are sorely mistaken.

Friends, I pray above all that we all might come to experience His love afresh everyday.

September 8, 2007

I just remembered that I also want a cross necklace.

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The truth really sets people free.

It's not that He doesn't listen, it's not that He doesn't care. My mind had to be changed, my soul had to be prospered.

Yesterday was the turning point.

It does not matter how people see me, what matters is how He sees me.

Everything seems meaningless compared to knowing about His infinite goodness and love.

It will take an eternity to really know Him and His grace - it's best to start now.

I have always been easily contented. I have always been easy to please.

I remember that as a small kid, I would fashion men, eagle-men, cat-men, scorpion-men, crab-men, monkey-men, and rabbit-men out of scraps of paper. I took pride in making them and I had a lot of fun playing with them. (If you're curious as to how I can come up with those just pass me a small square scrap of paper and I'll gladly make any shape you like.)

Now that I think about it, that's pretty weird. But I had fun nonetheless.

That's beside the point. As I was saying, I am easily contented.

That is why I think I'm starting to grow up now that I can finally say that I want something other than a video game.

I think what I am about to do is a milestone in the history of my life. I am going to list down the things that I want.

1. A keychain or any small accessory for my handphone. Mr. Bean/screen cleaner keychain needs to retire.
2. A keychain or any small accessory for my PSP case. Shark/bottle opener is really too heavy.
(for both items 1 and 2, anime designs are preferred)
3. A new pair of blue jeans. Any nice pair. I don't go for branded, as long as I can wear and it will not tear.
4. A pair of black jeans just because I think it's cool.
5. A good sized waterbottle. Not too big. I don't need a water barrel. Not too small either. It has to be professional yet sporty looking - it's for drinking in the office.
6. An easy to use and effective learn-to-speak-conversational-Mandarin computer software. I saw one some time ago from Popular. They also have Japanese. =D
7. Nickelback - Silver Side Up Album
8. Nickelback - All the Right Reasons Album
(although I have both on my com *cough* *pirate* *cough* I want to get the albusm because it's the right thing to do)
9. Nickelback - The Long Road
10. Nickelback - The State
(basically all Nickelback albums, these two I haven't tried downloading *cough* *pirate* *cough*)
11. A laptop. I don't need one now though. For future use.
12. A new acoustic guitar.
13. Either a new bicycle or Van Helsing back.

It looks like a crappy list. I need some more growing up to do.

14. To see you smile. I guess that will do for now.

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I have to start following my own advice.

Sunburnt skin and cramped up muscles... Was it worth it?



A hundred times yes.



I'm proud of you, JC South, for being the inter-JC CG Ultimate Frisbee champions.



Thanks for cheering for us even though we were put in another team. You guys rock in more ways than one.



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I can see clear blue skies.

Reality

Reality.

Things change.

Change is sometimes unexpected but sometimes it's not so surprising either.

Fiction.

Things change.

Change is expected but sometimes it's surprising too.

Haha. That is me trying to be profound. I believe that most profound things are actually new clothes of the emperor.

I.e. If you don't understand them then you are an idiot but in actuality it really does not make sense.

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Dad is back. Back for good.

Working for a new company. The company gave him a set of wheels.

He now drives this mean-looking black van which I shall dub the name Emmel because it looks so freaking cool it just has to have a name. The full name is Emmel Bev which is derived from the phonetics of the letters M.L.B.V. (mean-looking black van)

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Ah, yes, I remember why I wanted to talk about reality; truth to be more precise.

Sometimes it's easy to be in denial because sometimes the truth is too troublesome to accept. I tend to be caught up in denial that it becomes hard to get anywhere.

I have often denied to myself that I could be so fickle-minded. I have often denied to myself of how I felt.

But truth is a very potent in liberation.

I acknowledge that feelings are a part of life. It's not wrong to have them neither should they influence how I live my life.

I acknowledge that I am still immature and I'm entitled to being fickle-minded. I have a lot of time to grow.

I acknowledge that I like rock songs (soft ones) and emo songs. Justin Timberlake's songs are actually quite catchy.

Reality check.