Rollercoaster

I really do not know what to feel. Sometimes I want to give up and take the easy way out and yet a part of me does not want to quit.

I would like to believe that I have learned everything possible and that I could go on but would I have learned anything at all if I give up?

Will I always be backing away at the first sign of difficulty?

Nevertheless, this week was alright. Seemed to pass by quite quickly even with two excursions into the jungles of lower mandai.

It is easy to think of not giving up when things are on a high but when the rubber meets the road, somehow what has been thought goes out the window.

I want to learn as much as I can from this experience - I want to grow.